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  Unhurriedly, Derron continued walking to the end of the passage. There he halted, leaning with both hands on a protective railing of natural logs while he looked out over the dozen acres of park from a little balcony two levels above the grass. From the dome of “sky” six levels higher yet, an artificial sun shone down almost convincingly on grass and trees and shrubbery and on the varicolored birds in their invisible cage of curtain-jets of air. Across the park there tumbled a narrow stream of free fresh water; today its level had fallen so that the concrete sides of its bed were revealed halfway down.

  A year ago—a lifetime ago—when the real world had been still alive, Derron Odegard had not been one to spend much time in the appreciation of nature. Oh, a hike now and then in the fresh air.

  But he had been concentrating on finishing his schooling and in settling down to the labors of the professional historian. He had centered his life in texte and films and tapes and in the usual academic schemes for academic advancement. Even his hikes and holidays had taken him to places of historic significance…. With an effort that had become reflex, he forced the image of the woman he had loved once more from his thoughts.

  A year ago, a historian’s career had been a prospect filled with excitement, made electric by the first hints from the physicists that the quirks of Sirgol’s unique space-time might prove susceptive to manipulation, that humanity on Sirgol might be granted a firsthand look at much of its own past. Only a year ago, the berserker war had seemed remote; a terrible thing, of course, but afflicting only other worlds, light-years away. Decades had passed since the Earthmen had brought warning, and Sirgol’s planetary defenses had been decades in the building, a routine part of life’s background for a young man finishing his schooling.

  It occurred to Derron now, as a trivial truism, that in the past year he had learned more about history than he had in all the years of study that had gone before. Not that it was doing him any good. He thought now that when the last moment of history came on Sirgol, if he could know that it was the last, he would try to get away to one of these little parks with a small bottle of wine he had been saving. He would finish history by drinking whatever number of toasts history allowed, to whatever dead and dying things seemed to him most worthy of mourning.

  The tension of the day’s watch was just beginning to drain from his fingers into the hand-worn bark of the railing, and he had actually forgotten the recent explosion, when the first of the wounded came stumbling into the park below.

  The man came out of a narrow, grass-level entrance, his uniform jacket gone and the rest of his clothing torn and blackened. One of his bared arms was burnt and raw and swollen. He walked quickly, half blindly, among the trees, and then like an actor in some wilderness drama fell full length at the edge of the artificial brook and drank from it ravenously.

  Next from the same entrance came another man, older, more sedentary in appearance. Probably some kind of clerk or administrator, though at the distance Derron could not make out his insignia. This man was not visibly wounded, but he moved into the park as if he were lost. Now and then he raised his hands to his ears; he might be deaf, or just wondering if his head was still there.

  A pudgy woman entered, moaning in bewilderment, using first one hand and then the other to hold the flap of her torn scalp in place. After her another woman. A steady trickle of the suffering and maimed was flowing from the little entrance at grass level, spilling into the false peace of the park and defiling it with the swelling chorus of their querulous voices.

  From somewhere down the passages were heard authoritarian yells, and then the whine and rumble of heavy machinery. Damage Control was on the job promptly, for rescue and emergency repair. The walking wounded were obviously being sent to the park to get them out from underfoot while more urgent matters were handled. By now there were a couple of dozen sufferers wandering over the grass or lying on it, their groans demanding of the trees why the missile had gotten through today, why it had had to come to them.

  Among the wounded there walked a slender young woman of eighteen or twenty, clad in the remnants of a simple paper uniform dress. She stopped, leaning against a tree as if she could walk no farther. The way her dress was torn …

  Derron turned away from the railing, squeezing his eyes shut in a spasm of self-disgust. He had suddenly seen himself, standing here like some ancient tyrant remotely entertained by others’ pain, condescending to lust with a critical eye. One of these days, and soon, he would have to decide whether he was really still on the side of the human race or not.

  There was a stairway handy, and he hurried down to the ground level of the park. The badly burned man was bathing his raw arm in the cool running water, and others were drinking. No one seemed to have stopped breathing or to be bleeding to death. The girl looked as if she might fall away from her supporting tree at any moment.

  Pulling off his jacket as he went to her, Derron wrapped her in the garment and eased her away from the tree. “Where are you hurt?”

  She shook her head and said something incoherent. Her face was pale enough for her to be in shock; he tried to get her to sit down. She would not, and so the two of them did a little off-balance dance while he held her up. She was a tall, slim girl, and under normal conditions she would be lovely .. . no, not lovely, or anyway not pretty in the ordinary way. But good to look at, certainly. Her hair, like most women’s these days, was cut in the short simple style promoted by the government. She was wearing no jewelry or makeup at all, which was a bit unusual.

  She soon came out of her daze enough to look down with bewilderment at the jacket that had been wrapped around her. “You’re an officer,” she said in a low blurry voice, her eyes focusing on the collar insignia.

  “In a very small way. Now, hadn’t you better lie down somewhere?”

  “No… . I’ve been trying to get home … or somewhere. Can’t you tell me where I am? What’s going on?” Her voice was rising.

  “I believe there was a missile strike. Here now, this insignia of mine is supposed to be a help with the girls, so sit down at least, won’t you?”

  She resisted, and they danced a few more steps. “No. First I have to find out … I don’t know who I am—or where, or why!”

  “I don’t know those things about myself.” That was the most honest communication he had spoken to anyone in a considerable time. More people, passersby and medics, were running into the park now, adding to the general confusion as they tried to help the wounded. Becoming gradually more aware of her surroundings, the woman looked wildly around at all this activity and clung to Derron’s arm.

  “All right, young lady, since you seem determined to walk, I’m going to take you to the hospital. There’s one not far from here, just down the elevator. Come along.”

  The woman was willing enough to walk beside him, holding his arm. “What’s your name?” he asked her as they boarded the elevator. The other people aboard stared at the dazed woman wearing his jacket.

  “I … don’t know!” Finding her name gone, she became really frightened. Her hand went to her throat, but no dog tag depended there. Many people didn’t like to wear them and disregarded the regulation requiring it. “Where are you taking me?”

  “I told you, to a hospital. You need some looking after.” He would have liked to give a wilder answer, for their staring fellow passengers’ benefit.

  Down at Operations Level, he led the woman off the elevator. A few more steps brought them to an emergency entrance to the hospital complex. Other casualties from the explosion, stretcher cases, were arriving now, and the emergency room was crowded. An elderly nurse started to take Derron’s jacket off the young woman and what was left of her own clothing peeled away with it. She squealed faintly, and the nurse rewrapped her with a brisk motion. “You just come back for this jacket tomorrow, young man.”

  “Gladly.” And then the pressure of stretcher bearers and other busy people around him was so great that he could’ do no more than wave good-by
e to the woman as he was forced slowly out into the corridor. He disentangled himself from the crowd and walked away smiling, almost laughing to himself about the nurse and the jacket, as if it had been a great joke. It was a while since he had had a thought that seemed worth smiling at.

  He was still smiling faintly as he ducked into the Time Operations complex to pick up the spare jacket that he kept in his locker in the sentries’ ready room. There was nothing new on the bulletin board. He thought, not for the first time, of applying for a transfer, to some job that didn’t require sitting still for six hours of deadly strain a day. But it seemed that those who didn’t apply were just about as likely to be transferred as those who did.

  Naturally, the woman’s husband or lover would probably show up before tomorrow to claim her. Of course—a woman like that. Well, he would hope someone showed up for her—a sister or a brother, perhaps.

  He went into the nearby officers’ gym and got into a handball game with his old classmate Chan Amling, who was now a captain in the Historical Research Section. Amling was not one to play without betting, and Derron won an ersatz soft drink, which he preferred not to collect. The talk in the gym was mostly about Time Operations’ first victory; when someone brought up the subject of the missile strike, Derron said no more than that he had seen some of the wounded.

  After showering, Derron and Amling and a couple of others went to a bar on Housing Level that Amling favored. Major Lukas, the chief historical psychologist in Time Operations, was established there in a booth, holding forth on the psychic and other attributes of some new girls at a local uplevel dive called the Red Garter. There were some areas in which private enterprise still flourished with a minimum of governmental interference.

  Amling bet with the others on darts, on dice, and on something having to do with the Red Garter girls. Derron wasn’t listening too closely, though for a change he was smiling and joking a little. He had one drink, his usual maximum, and relaxed for a while amid the social noise.

  In the local officers’ mess he ate his dinner with a better appetite than usual. When at last he reached his cubicle, he kicked off his shoes and stretched out on his cot and for once was sound asleep before he could even consider taking a pill.

  After coming stiffly awake in the middle of the night, then getting undressed and going properly to bed, he still awoke somewhat ahead of schedule and feeling well rested. The little clock on his cubicle wall read oh-six-thirty hours, Planetwide Emergency Time. This morning none of the aspects of Time weighed on him very heavily. Certainly, he thought, he had enough of that mysterious dimension at his disposal to let him stop at the hospital for a while before going on duty.

  Carrying yesterday’s jacket over his arm, he followed a nurse’s directions and found the woman seated in a patients’ lounge, which at this time of the morning she had pretty much to herself. She was planted directly in front of the television, frowning with naive-looking concentration at Channel Gung-Ho, as the government’s exhortation channel was popularly termed. Today the woman was wearing a plain new paper dress and hospital slippers.

  At the sound of Derron’s step she turned her head quickly, then smiled and got to her feet. “Oh, it’s you! It’s a good feeling to recognize someone.”

  Derron took the hand she was holding out. “It’s a good feeling to be recognized. You’re looking much better.”

  She thanked Derron for his help, and he protested that it had been nothing. She turned off the television sound and they sat down to talk. He introduced himself.

  Her smile vanished. “I wish I could tell you my name.”

  “I know, I talked with the nurse–—They say your amnesia is persisting, but outside of that you’re doing fine.”

  “Yes, I feel fine except for that one little detail. I guess I wasn’t physically hurt at all. And I have a new name, of sorts. Lisa Gray. For the sake of their hospital records they had to tag me with something, next off some list they keep handy. Evidently a fair number of people go blank in the upper story these days and have to be renamed. And they say so many records, fingerprints and things, were lost when the surface was evacuated.”

  “Lisa’s a nice name. I think it suits you.”

  “Thank you, sir.” She managed to sound almost carefree for a moment.

  Derron considered. “You know, I’ve heard that being in the path of a missile, being run over by the probability-wave before it materializes, can cause amnesia. It’s a little like being dropped into the deep past. Sort of wipes the slate clean.”

  The girl nodded. “Yes, the doctors think that’s what happened to me yesterday. They tell me that when the missile hit I was with a group of people being brought down from an upper level that’s being evacuated. I suppose if I had any next of kin with me, they were blown to pieces along with our records. Nobody’s come looking for me.”

  It was a story common enough on Sirgol to be boring, but this time Derron could feel the pain in it. In sympathy he changed the subject. “Have you had your breakfast yet?”

  “Yes. There’s a little automat right here if you want something. Maybe I could use some more fruit juice.”

  In a minute Derron was back, carrying one paper cup of the orange-colored liquid called fruit juice, one cup of tea, and a couple of the standard sweet rolls. Lisa was again studying the television version of the war; the commentator’s stentorian voice was still tuned mercifully low.

  Derron laid out his cargo on a low table and pulled his own chair closer. Glancing at Lisa’s puzzled expression, he asked, “Do you remember much about the war?”

  “Almost nothing. … I guess that part of my memory really was wiped clean. What are these berserkers? I know they’re something terrible, but…”

  “Well, they’re machines.” Derron sipped his tea. “Some of them are bigger than any spaceships that we or any other Earth-descended men have ever built. Others come in different shapes and sizes, but all of them are deadly. The first of them were constructed ages ago, by some race we’ve never met, to fight in some war we’ve never heard of.

  “They were programmed to destroy life anywhere they could find it, and they’ve come only the Holy One knows how far, doing just that.” Derron had begun in a conversational tone, and his voice was still quiet, but now the words seemed to be welling up from an inexhaustible spring of bitterness. “Sometimes men have beaten them in battle, but some of them have always survived. The survivors hide out on unexplored rocks, around some dark star, and they build more of their kind, with improvements. And then they come back. They just go on and on, like death itself… .”

  “No,” said Lisa, unwilling to have it so.

  “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to start raving. Not so early in the morning, anyway.” He smiled faintly. He supposed he had no reasonable excuse for unloading the weight of his soul onto this woman. But once things started pouring out … “We on Sirgol were alive, and so the berserkers had to kill us. But since they’re only machines, why, it’s all only an accident, sort of a cosmic joke. An act of the Holy One, as people used to put it. We have no one to take revenge on.” His throat felt tight; he swallowed the rest of his tea and pushed the cup away.

  Lisa asked. “Won’t men come from other planets to help us?”

  He sighed. “Some of them are fighting berserkers near their own systems. A really big relief fleet would have to be put together to do us any good— while, of course, politics must still be played among the stars as usual. Oh, I suppose help will be sent eventually.”

  The television commentator was droning on aggressively about men’s brilliant defensive victories on the moon, while an appropriate videotape was being shown. The chief satellite of Sirgol was said to much resemble the moon on Earth; long before either men or berserkers had existed, its round face had been pocked by impact craters into an awed expression. But during the last year, the face of Sirgol’s moon had vanished under a rash of new impacts, along with practically all of the human defenders there.

 
; “I think help will come to us in time,” said Lisa.

  In time for what? Derron wondered. “I suppose so,” he said, and felt that he was lying.

  Now the television was presenting a scene on Sirgol’s dayside. Under a sky of savage blue—a little atmosphere was left—cracked mud flats stretched away to a leveled horizon. Nothing lived. Nothing moved but a few thin whirlwinds of yellow-gray dust. Rising gleaming from the dried mud in the middle distance were the bright steel bones of some invading berserker device, smashed and twisted last tenday or last month by some awesome energy of defense. Another victory for the droning voice to try to magnify.

  Lisa turned away from the desolate display. “I have a few memories left—of beautiful things on the surface. Not like that.”

  “Yes. There were some beautiful things.”

  “Tell me.”

  “Well.” He smiled faintly. “Do you prefer to hear about man’s marvelous creations, or the wonders of nature?”

  “Things men made, I suppose… . Oh, I don’t know. Man is a part of nature, isn’t he? And so the things he makes are, too, in a way.”

  There rose before his mind’s eye the image of a cathedral temple towering on a hill, and a sunburst of stained glass … but that would not bear remembering. He said, “I don’t know if we can be considered a part of nature on this planet or not. You remember how peculiar the space-time around Sirgol is?”

  “You mean about the First Men coming here—but I don’t think I ever really understood the scientific explanation. Tell me.”